Painfully Artistic

Painfully Artistic.

 

  I think this may turn towards the reader rather than focusing on myself like I prefer to do, not that I'm more interested in myself, I just know me better so it becomes easier to write based on what I know.    I think this is more of a curiosity, mainly because I wonder if you, the reader, is like me in the regard that I often feel hopelessfully hopeful.

 

  Let's be clear, you may get lost, I may get lost. But, lets try to stick together as I unwind my mind today. Here goes...

 

  I wonder if other people experiance the same feeling I do. I want to do something, I don't know what, I mean, I know a lot of the things I want to do. I want to use my time better, look better, impact more people, find more honest relationships and move past the point in my life where many people seem unhappy and zombie-like and somehow find myself in a place where people are living because they enjoy life. Not paradise, just a place where people actually like living. Living, as I see it, is a daily action, so, if people aren't enjoying the things they do on a daily basis (work, school, relationships they're involved in, etc) then they're not really enjoying life. I don't know, maybe I'm too ignorant and I don't understand yet that life isn't meant to be enjoyed. I understand that life isn't meant to be easy, I have no problem with that. I currently sit writing 45 minutes from my home, just released from a morning class and waiting for an afternoon nap, if there is anywhere that isn't a fun place to be, its waiting for a class you probably won't enjoy, but I digress. I don't want to complain. I just wonder, does anyone else feel the same? Do other people feel stiffled and shut down by various things that happen (or often don't happen) in their lives? Not in a complaining-type of way, just in an honest, "Yes, life sometimes makes me feel like I have things to release" kind of way.    For me personally, I find this feeling comes the most often when I haven't had the chance to write for a long time. "Then, write more often." one may say. While I understand the logic there I simply don't know what to say. I want to do more with myself than place my thoughts and ideas down on sheets of paper. Not that its bad, I love it, I just have other things I have to (and want to) do as well.

 

 

  Is it the same for you? Do you find your life slightly more boring when you don;'t have that musical connection? Are you less alive when you lack social exchanges? Feel free to comment and chat, I enjoy imput.

 

  On a somewhat related side note, I think I'm going to be making YouTube videos again, so I may post some of those here, I don't know, this is just whats gonig through my mind.

 

-Mattaghetti

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